A new hope

Many of you already know, but I wanted to share with those that don't. Ryan and I have decided that adoption is the right path for us right now. We had a really neat experience in the temple a couple months ago that let us know that our Heavenly Father is also pleased with the decision. It is a new hope for us. It feels so good to hope for things again. There have been many things that have happened along the way that helped us with this decision. I also think that when my best friend placed her baby up for adoption a while ago it helped me to be able to see that other side of it. Those girls that place their child are really the strongest, most selfess girls. Adoption is a beautiful process and I often think about that little girl that my friend placed.

We have started the paperwork and have been to two meetings. The next meeting is this week. Hopefully we will be able to proceed quickly. We are just waiting on a couple Dr notes.

My biggest fears: We will have to wait a really long time to be picked. They said it is taking longer and longer because less people are placing and more people are wanting to adopt. I also am afraid that we will be picked and then at the last second it will fall through. All of these fears are worth it though because I know eventually we will be parents.